Nice to see forumites we haven‘t seen in a while. As some of may have seen on Facebook, I was just on a wonderful hiking trip in the Aeolian Islands just north of Sicily. It was incredibly beautiful, the group was small and really great and my body worked pretty well, I even managed to go up to the top of Stromboli! I have been dealing with a lot of fatigue lately so this was surpising and so wonderful. So there was lots of sunshine, laughter, good food and wine and great hiking, the perfect holiday!
But I have other news which I haven‘t discussed on Facebook – yet. H and I are finally breaking up, for real. Yes, I‘ve said this before but this time it has gone much further. I‘ve bought a new apartment and put my old one up for sale. He instigated this, I don‘t why it‘s happening now, maybe my fatigue has been annoying him (!), but I really feel it‘s time. A couple of years ago I would have been devasted but now I feel very strong and determined and well, relieved actually.
I‘m so tired of feeling like I‘m never good enough and I‘ve realzed it‘s not about me, it‘s about him. He has serious emotional issues and I will never be able to change them. Never. He always blames me, I‘m too emotional, too much this and too much that, blablabla and I don‘t want to hear that ever again. At least I‘m trying, at least I‘m willing to listen and learn and try to do better but he‘s not. So there‘s nothing more I can do.
My sister has been incredibly supportive in all this, she has offered me to stay at her place if and when I need to. My co-workers too, I told them early on. I also had a very good talk with one of my fellow travellers who divorced 3 years ago, our former partners sound so much alike! My new place is lovely, it‘s close to where I used to live but a bit more luxurious with an inside parking space, I will move in December. I think this will be a good change for me and I‘m excited.